…who is Priscilla?

I have been postponing writing this because I didn’t know what to say. I guess I still don’t. So I will try to explain who I am.

I looooove planning events, especially weddings!!! I love all the pomp and circumstance! I can make a special event out of anything. I guess you can say I was born to do weddings….(not that I’m anywhere near being a female David Tutera). When I was younger, I planned a wedding for my barbies. I had my mom make 2 matching bridesmaid dresses with matching bouquets. My dad played “Here comes the bride” on the piano, and it was videotaped. Man. This is no joke. I need to find that video. I know where the dresses are and will post a pic later.

I also care about people. I am working towards working in the health field. More about that later. I also like taking pictures, with Mare’s camera.
 
As far as my faith journey goes, it has been a looooong one. I specifically remember asking Jesus to come into my heart one night in my room when I was really young. I must have been 6 or younger because I remember which bedroom I was in.

For as long as I can remember, I have always been “goody-goody”. This didn’t help me very well in gaining friends, especially in middle school where eveyone hated me because I wasn’t like them, and I disliked everyone because they weren’t nice to me. High school, I was able to make friends a lot easier, maybe because it was such a diverse group. Anyway, I was “good” but not for the right reasons. I don’t like to be in trouble, it’s a horrible feeling. Therefore, I was good, really, so I wouldn’t get in trouble. I guess this makes sense. But I figured that most people do what they want when they want and don’t care about the consequences. I don’t mean just getting caught though because I understand that God is everywhere, so I could get in trouble with Him too. I guess also, I usually don’t want to do ” bad things”. Whatever that may entail. Stealing candy? Why would I steal it? It wasn’t mine. I now understand that having morals and values isn’t just about not getting in trouble. It’s about doing things that are right in God’s eyes so that we can “point” to Him and draw others closer to Him. That is why. Being a true Christian, your deisre to do “worldy deeds” lowers. Of course, you can’t do it by yourself, God has to give you the courage and strength to stand out. To be different from others. To be a minority. To not be popular.

I’ve always been ok with not being popular. If being popular meant cheating on a test, watching certain shows and dancing certain ways, I wanted no part of it.

So there I was thinking that I was ok with God. I was “good” enough. I was “clean” enough. But one can never be good or clean enough. You can ALWAYS be closer to God. I now have a hunger to let my purpose in life to point to God and to do whatever He wants me to do. I am not here to make myself happy. I am not here to get all I can. I am here to be a SERVANT to God.